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i feel much better now. After close to 2 hours of crying. My eyes feel painful and my nose feels numb.
Not only that, i feel my head heavy while my brain is jumbled up. Oddly this feels normal.
just fade.. Thats the only thing i want. To fade from this cruel truth. The cruelty of sibling rivalry...
i hate this. This depressed feeling, wanting to disappear or fade slowly. Just die.
for the first time. Music has no effect on me. Usually i cheer up listening, no matter how much. I kept crying. Non-stop.
its like the time i knew i blew my chances of getting better grades. Yeah its a bitch.
A TOTAL BITCH YA HEARD MEH?! !! FUCK IT LIFE!!
Everytime i open my eyes. I cry, i find it painful but makes me wonder if i could cry out blood.
Possible..right???
My head hurts, i feel weak. Maybe i might break down and collapse over stress. I hope it happens fast.
When everything crash down, we have to get up alone and battered,pained and broken. So would willingly help you..but would it stay...
1 hour has pass since i cried. Its painful.
1hr 11 minutes and counting.
having constant stress outbreak became as if. Like a daily routine. Its funny really.
Laters....
